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Why?

Why????

By Angelique WoodPublished 6 years ago 3 min read
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Why? Sometimes that's all I can ask myself is Why? Why do I put on makeup? Why do I wear shape wear that is so uncomfortable just to make my tummy look flatter? Why do I wear shirts that show off my cleavage? Why? To make me feel pretty? To make me feel sexy? Yes I feel pretty and sexy when I do all of this stuff, but how about when I take it all off? Do I still feel pretty? Do I still feel sexy? No, I don't feel like that. There are times I go through all this work so the world sees me as pretty or sexy but I still feel ugly and gross. The days I do go out with put my makeup on, I get asked oh are you sick? You don't look well. Oh why is is your face so red? Oh when are you due? No people this is me, the real me. It is so hard to live in a world where I can't feel pretty in my own skin. I'm sorry I'm not a size 2 so I look pregnant to you. I'm sorry my skin is not prefect without my layers of makeup on. It's bad enough feeling ugly and gross. I put my makeup on everyday before work and my daughter plays along with me. She tells me everyday after I put on makeup that I'm pretty.

Now I wonder I'm I teaching her to love her true self or am I teaching her about my insecurities? Am I teaching her that she needs to wear makeup and certain clothes to look pretty? My only wish is that my daughter doesn't have to grow up in the same world I did. Where beauty means everything and if you are pretty enough then you're nothing. That's a very lonely road and I don't wish that upon anybody. I want all my children to know they perfect just the way they are. I don't want them to think they have to look a certain why to be special. But how can I teach them that when I'm not comfortable with myself? So I can change myself but then I'm right back to not liking who I am. So how do I change how I see myself? How do we change the way people see other people? How about the people who they put in magazines? They have to be a certain size or weight and it seems to always be a size that we are told we need to be to be pretty.

So we have teens not eating and doing dangerous things to their bodies to become what other say you have to be in order to be pretty and sexy. Take someone who has had a child, they may not have a flat tummy and they may have stretch marks and people are telling them that's not pretty or sexy. People are being body shamed because they had a child. That is an awful thing. Having a child is a beautiful thing and no one should put a time limit for you to lose the baby weight or for you to have a flat tummy. No two people are the same there for no one should look like anyone else. It's time for a change. It's time to change how people see others, everyone is beautiful in there own way and no one should tell someone otherwise just because of a trend. I don't care if your a size two or a size thirty two, you are beautiful and you should love yourself. Now if we can all do that, me included, there might be hope for our children to grow up in a world with just a little less hate. Seems like a far fetch dream but it's a dream I hope one day will come true.

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About the Creator

Angelique Wood

I have always enjoyed writing but always to afraid to put my writing out there for people to see. Im a mother of 3 and I love it.

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