Struggles to Be Perfect

I am not skinny. I have massive thighs. I do not have a flat stomach. I have a muffin top. I do not fit in the latest shirt styles. I have big boobs that need support. I go to the gym to try to get in better shape. Why do I need to work out until I have the perfect body? I am not perfect, but then again, who is?

I should be able to fit into a size two, but my thighs/legs are all muscle, so what can I do? My butt doesn't get much bigger than it already is, so how am I supposed to get the Kim K body? My lips are not huge, why do I need injections? Why do I have to have the perfect face, when I have acne and stress that causes imperfections? I am not perfect, but then again, who is?

Why does society have a definition of perfect and beautiful when it changes everyday? It is so hard to try to be the best woman you can when the standards are forever changing. One moment to the next, the ideals of the perfect look change. Is it so hard to accept that all forms and figures are beautiful?

As it seems lately, the world wants to tell us what we should look like, how we should dress, and what is sexy in society. One moment they tell us that being a bit bigger everywhere is the new sexy, and now, somehow, we have warped our brains around that—to look good you have to have a medium-large chest, flat stomach, and a big booty, or to be skinny all over. There is no winning situation here!

Just because I am a bigger girl does not mean that when I look in the mirror I do not feel sexy. I should feel confident and love my body regardless of how I look, of how big I am.

Why, at the size I am, can I not be perfect? Why is it that now, when I look at myself in the mirror, I find it hard to be consider myself beautiful because I do not look like the models in the magazines? It is hard to be anything but a size two and feel confident when everywhere you look is telling you that you are too big. Fitness is now being used to say, "This is how you can look like the models" instead of trying to help you achieve your body goals.

Lately, the world is becoming more obsessed with getting girls to look how they think they should look, instead of allowing us to be the woman that we envision ourselves to be.

The problem is that many people think that women are all the same; our bodies all function the same when they really do not. For some, it is super easy for them to lose weight, but they are unable to gain anything. For others, it's the opposite. Why should either be made fun of? Why should anything else be considered perfect that is anything but a strong woman?

The only size that should matter should be the size of the heart inside the woman. It should be on the inside that counts more than the outside. All women should be able to feel confident and beautiful, regardless of their size.

If we live according to a number, then I will never be considered beautiful. If we live according to a certain look, millions of women will feel out of place in society. If we live based how we are supposed to look, we let the industry win and the free spirit of women of all shapes and sizes lose...

I am not perfect, but then again who is?